Not what you dictate

 It’s not who I am, It’s just what they want me to be.

For years flow is nothing but general.
You can’t be you and I can’t be me.
It’s the sin of life no one can foresee..

What happened to us and magical claim,
I could always be the reasons to blame.

It should be not just us,
It should we, they, you & I..

How could life be so cruel with something so fragile,
How could humanity be so submissive to all that power,
How could I be them and they be me,
How could we stick to fight for equality but in reality no are all the same,
How could you give up your essence and let die,
How could they want to be something they’re not and want me to be their sigh,
How could you let go of all dreams just to fit in, then run away with grief..
How could we all?!

What is sadness?
What is love?
What is Happiness?
And what is Humanity?

Sources of life,
Sources of belonging,
Sources of motivation..
What is anything anyway?

I breath so hard,
I breath so hard,
I just breath..

Demons, I see
Demons, I am running from
Demons, waking me
Demons, shadowing all over my head
Demons, I get back to
Demons, I am not ready to be theirs
Demons, I kill everyday in my sleep
Demons, I never liked

GASP!

I woke up to the sound of fire,
Fire eating up my cigarette,
Filling my lungs with burn,
Exhaling all that I’ve inhaled,
Will let it out,
I am not letting go of me,
You let go of your grudge,
Let go of me,
You won a battle,
I fin the war,
You can never call on me again,
I can’t see you anymore..

You are nothing but fumes to me..

Will let you go,
Forever will you leave..
Forever will let you out of my life..
Forever will control you and not you, I..
Forever will win my demons not you won by time..

Because I dictate,
Never dictate thy mine.

My Marie

As of today, you'll never leave me. 

For 13 years, you've been my comfort; my role model. 

Since the day we met, I knew who you were.

It was there, in your eyes.

The sassiness that you are,

The Playfulness that you can get,

The affection whom you were it,

The powerful interaction who you will always be.

You were a gift; a longed for gift since ages.

And since that birthday of mine..

I watched you play, learn how to walk, how to eat, how to fight back.. 

You were growing up and I was too. 

You've stuck around with everything; the bad before the good.

I can't help but recall, the day you woke me up to deliver.

I can't shake that moment, when you woke me up out of pain.

Magical, indeed.

You've portrayed a marvellous symbol to be taught.

Who says pets are only for fun.

I will always long for those hugs you gave me when no one did.

I will always cherish the moments when we played.

I will always remember when I snuck you food on the table.

I will always look back to you eating food off my plate.

I will always laugh on our fights. Who fights with their pets but us.

I will always smell your tail wiggle near my nose.

I will always recall your elaborate loong wishful looks.

I will always hear your meow.

I will always keep your chair empty.

I will always always want to kiss you hello.

I will always keep my cupboard open for you to crawl in.

I will always think of you as luxury.

I will always see me in you.

And You'll forever be my Marie ❤️

13 Years of journeys,

13 Years of the beauty that you are and the beast you can be.

13 Years of You..

Are definitely not enough ❤️

RIP 

My Aristocat, Marie ❤️

I will always wait for you, to wake me up...

Friday 31-3-2023

10 am